|Motherhood, Depression and Sex Panel at Catalyst Con East with Jessica Cary, Anain Bjorkquist and Miko Technogeisha|
Over the past two months, I have sat on and hosted panels at two conferences. I got to speak about topics that I am deeply passionate about, topics that once upon a time I thought I would never have the credibility or the balls to talk about in public -- in front of people, with a mic in my hand, feeling at home and completely unafraid. (When I worked in Corporate America, I hated public speaking!)
Now that I am doing this work and I've committed myself to the process, opportunities pop up unexpectedly and I have to be ready to step up to the plate. I never know what email will pop up in my inbox, who I'll meet or what I'll be asked to do. I dedicated the #30Layers30days challenge in March to the concept of 'leveling up' because I know that all of us have goals that scare us and that sneaky temptation to sabotage ourselves when opportunities intimidate us.
When dreams start to manifest, the pressure increases and the urge to self-sabotage is so real. Fear of success. That is all it is.
I am currently hosting my first comprehensive online writing workshop and during one of our chats, I shared how my writing practice has given me confidence to not only know what I have to offer and why, but to articulate myself to others with conviction. I look back at this post from April 2013 where I talked about not knowing myself enough to speak up, letting people treat me any kind of way, and feeling embarrassed and uncertain about my voice. The road has been anything but easy, but damn it feels good to look back and see progress, even when I know the journey is always upward and never ending. I'm so thankful and I'm here for it. Every bit of it.