"I did it again. How do I keep making the same mistake over and over again. There must be something wrong with me. I can't let anyone know. I'll tell you a few white lies to cover it up and next time I will do better. I hope. Maybe not. It's always the same. It's like I go into auto-pilot and rationalize the same behavior over and over again. Something is wrong with me."
"I'm tired. I have so much to do and my brain won't cooperate. I've been looking at my to-do list for the last two hours and I haven't accomplished anything yet. I don't know where to start. I have so much to do. Let me check my emails. Add some things to my to-do list. Oh my goodness, there is so much. Let me make sure everything I need to do is on this list. Two more hours have past. It's time to go now. I'll pick up here tomorrow. Oh my goodness, I have so much to do!"
"That pain. There it is again, when I bend to the side too fast. In my lower right abdomen. What is that? What if it is something serious. What if it's cancer? What if I'm sick? Something is always going wrong. What would I do? What would they do? Why do these things always happen to me?"
"She thinks she's right. I know she does. Because I didn't scream and yell and shut her down, now she thinks she's right. I shouldn't have let her have the last word. Now she has the upper hand. I need to confront her. I need to change her mind or at least get her to admit that I'm right, otherwise I won't be able to focus on anything else."
"I can't say what I really think or show anyone what I made because what if no one likes it? What if it's a big waste of time? I should just stick to what I know, to what people expect of me. That's easier."
The places our thoughts go when we let them run wild without deeper examination.
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Happy New Year to all of you lovers and light seekers. I wonder what you are up to! Busy with events and celebrations? Preparing for new things in 2015? Going on a trip? Feeling gloomy and uninspired? Writing down goals and objectives for the year? Deciding who and what to let go of in the new year? Click through to see what's going on around here.